oh no.

i am going to die.
i have to go to the beach for spring break.
wearing tank tops , shorts,
and.. the dreaded bikini. you all saw my body. you know what it looks like.
you know how AWFUL IT IS.
.....oh my god.

so it is now MY GOAL TO LOSE WEIGHT. I have to. NOW. I can't put it off.
do i want to be this :

or this :


i'm heading to the gym now. photo update when i get back.
as of now things are NOT looking good.