the best little girl in the world

i am not
hungry.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z1_Mi6UTlsQ&videos=wN7nnFOBctk&playnext_from=TL&playnext=1

Today is gonna be the day that they're gonna throw it back to you..

even though no one reads these stupid postings, i'm going to keep writing.
it's better this way because then no one can figure out who i am.
god, i'm so hungry right now.
it feels like acid is eating my liver.

i ate last night, some veggie lasagna, because my dad really wanted me to.
and i'd rather not upset him.
and then i had some vanilla ice cream with strawberries because he scooped it out for me
and you know? he's just being nice. i don't want to make him sad.
besides, i had ridden 8 miles on my bike.
haha.

but i'm hungry now!
hmmm, i 'm gonna go do some crunches.

i'd say goodbye, but that's pointless because there's no one to say goodbye to. :)

99

so after eating very little else besides popsicles, i have dropped TWO pounds in about three days.
which kinda sucks if you think about it, but considering i ate like a pig the first two.. it's pretty good.
besides, i'm happy with ANY loss.
Now I'm just trying to coast.


http://www.caloriesperhour.com/index_burn.php
try going here. I'm not really sure what it is exactly but it has a thing about calories you should have to maintain/increase your metabolism.
http://www.wikihow.com/Increase-Your-Metabolism

most of this makes zero sense to me, but oh well. Supposedly I should have 1,197 calories a day at least... i don't know, whatever.

My main goal starting monday is to do ab workouts. I've got a pretty flat stomach, but of course i want it flatter.

And if I can achieve this, what else is stopping me from cutting down my arms?

And then, if I can make my top half better, why not my legs? what, honestly, is stopping me?

i'm not far from good abs... so a little achievement could be just the esteem booster i need to push me off this deep end.
I told myself by band camp I'd be thin: middle of July.
THIN.

point me at the sky

And if you survive till two thousand and five
I hope you're exceedingly thin
For if you are stout you will have to breathe out
While the people around you breathe in

FUCK PERIODS.

I just gained a WHOLE pound because i started my period.
really??
is that even normal?

but anyway, i'm watching a TV show about little girls who go to pageants and it's SICK. they're so full of themselves. but they'll probably never have to worry about losing weight...
wow, their moms get so worked up. they're all like, 6 and gorgeous. it's disgusting. and unfair!
it's mainly kids of moms who are all fat and gross.
.erg.
anyway, i was looking up some songs about ana. check them out:

Silverchair - Ana's Song

Manic Street Preachers - 4st 7lb

Filter - Skinny*

Saves the Day - Cars and Calories