ludicrous

So I've gained two pounds and I haven't really cared much.
you know, being busy with school I get distracted and I cant focus on my eating.
just my grades, and homework, and marching band.
and Boyfriend of course.

I bought us promise rings online today.
unfortunately they turned out to be WEDDING BANDS
so now he's going to think I'm a clingy freak!

Greeeeeeeeatttt.

bitterness .

I hate you and everything about you and I hope you have to change schools or something because i am
SO TIRED OF LOOKING AT YOU
AND YOUR SMIRKING FACE.
i hope you have to solve algebraic equations for the rest of your life, asshole.
and by the way you ARE really small
and you are NOT hot and i think
you are fat.
YOU ARE JUST LIKE EVERY OTHER STUPID FUCKING ASSHOLE.

IT'S FUNNY HOW
EVERYTHING YOU SAID WOULD NEVER CHANGE
IS DIFFERENT NOW-
just like you.

and YOU-
YOU should STOP trying to get with HIM
although HE WILL SLEEP WITH YOU
JUST SO YOU KNOW.
and you shouldn't have made the fucking play;
if i had tried out you DEFINITELY WOULDN'T HAVE SO STOP FUCKING BRAGGING.


I hope you both swallow swamp water and joke.
I seriously want to stab you with forks.
maybe I'm immature
but at least I'm not a WHORE.

I try my hardest not to care at all
to just block you the hell out but I fucking can't
forget how shitty you treated me
and how I let you.

it doesn't matter how HAPPY I am NOW
I STILL think about you and STILL want to burn you with a HOT IRON.