My sister

is bullemic, and she told me her psychiatrist said
that she should be happy she is just a bulimic
and not an anorexic because
it's
"an easier road"
and
"easier to fix"

dumb
dumb lady.

so she should be grateful she's bulimic?
i'm grateful i'm NOT.

but my sister is right,
when people think of anorexics they have sympathy,
but when they think of bulimics they think of puke- and ew- no sympathy for them.

and i think that is just ridiculous.

thank you , band camp

for making me gain 5 pounds. for having me eat EVERY DAY in FRONT OF PEOPLE.
And FORCING me to PRETEND to be COMFORTABLE with food.
I HATE FOOD.
I don't WANT it-
I don't NEED it.
weekends always suck because i can never starve myself . . . i don't know why, maybe it's because everyone is home,
but i can't wait till tomorrow when i can stop this pattern of eating . . .
:)
oh i can't wait.

I may just be getting excited,
but i swear my arms look thinner.
a little bit.

the only thing worse

than being on your period is being on your period with an empty stomach.

91

91 is so close to 89. . . if i get into the 80's . . . !!
i haven't lost much body fat though. . .

someone, seriously,

i honestly can not make myself throw up. either i don't know how, or...?
I tried but barely anything came up.
it was very disappointing, and my stomach felt like a rock.
I knew i shouldn't have eaten.... now my stomach is all stretched out.
i wonder how many pounds i gained..

does anyone have tips they're willing to share? it'd be gratefully appreciated !!

95

no way. if i can make 95 i am NOT eating. not worth it.
feels so good.