i'm so sick and tired
of never being able to change a damn thing.
of never being thin.
i fucking cant wait til summer,
sitting around starving and sucking on freeze-pops.
five weeks until summer.
i sit around on my ass all day and i can't change a thing.
not enough time, not enough motivation. starvation makes me fail at school,
and i can't fail
but i can't keep being such a fat ass.
oh, and the love of my life agrees.
i asked him "if there was one thing you could change about my body, what would you pick?"
his response "well i like your body, but maybe just a tad bit leaner."
JUST A TAD BIT LEANER.
he tells me this, and i want to change, but i just sit on my ass, all day, crying my eyes out because i'm fat and even HE knows it.
